Breathing and Thinking

It is 9:45 a.m. on Saturday morning. Today is the first day of my “Holy crap! School starts in a week, and I can’t fit into any of my clothes, and I can’t afford to buy a new wardrobe” diet.

So, to keep me accountable and on target, I’m going to use my blog as well as Weight Watchers online program to stay focused.

Yesterday was my unofficial last day of summer. I made it a day of excess in every way I could in order to prepare for today.

All I did the entire day was eat or sleep. And when I say eat, I mean eat. I had ice cream and Chinese food and more ice cream and Jack in the Box and more ice cream. I probably added another five pounds to have to try to lose, but it was a mental prepartion thing.

I woke up this morning, and the very first thought was, ‘Oh man! I have an ice cream bar in the freezer I was going to eat last night, and I fell asleep!’ Then, I started to justify perhaps eating it for breakfast or as an appetizer to breakfast since technically I had planned to eat it on my day of excess, so it would really be the same difference. But, I am proud to say that I resisted the temptation! Yea! Go me!

So, what have I done so far today? Well, I started out by swallowing an alli pill. Then, I brewed a cup of oolong tea and put one package of Splenda in it–no milk! And then, to eat, I ate a fruit and yogurt parfait from McDonald’s that I had purchased last night in prepartion for this morning’s breakfast. 

I logged onto Weight Watchers to track my points–the parfait has three points.

I also inputted my weight. I was embarassed in front of myself because I used to be on the 20 point plan, but now I’m so fat that I can have 22 points! Ugh! How did I let myself become such a fat blob? I know, I know! No negative talk. The important thing is I’m making changes to change it.

So, 19 more points to go today.

Lord, please help me stay focused so I can pull my pants up past my knee when it’s time to go back to work!